always remember im by ur side
for queen vonny
for ahmah
for miao-ey
for rachie
for qi-tan
for jie-tay
for the counsellor
for gor-tan
for jaryl tan
for the first 3 mths of db-ing
for the big green thing
for lil miss xiao xiao
for ser-tan
for leelee
for hao mai
for TC
for TC
for TC again
for 34/05
always remember i'm by your side
such a shame that you had to go
so much more that i'd like to know
so many things you forgot to show me how to do
when times are hard i forget your gone
i go to call you before it dawns on me
that you wont be there now
but i still have these words that you gave me
always remember i'm by your side
always remember i'm by your side
ngiam
its been so much of hectic, ngiamness n blah-ish rubbishness for the week.
okok. mayb im mean at my sarcastic snide comments.
sorry that u discovered the mean side of me after knowing me betta.
im not all that cheery 24/7 u know.
n now i sound like sum depressed ass.
no la.
not depressed or blah.
juz sianified.
ngiam. new word for today.
anyways. it was all 'juz -tryin-ta-get-thru'
n this are the times i stop and wonder wad the heck m i doing in life.
like completely goal-ess.
unless ya consider me wanting ta get into ntu mass comm as a goal.
which apparently i haven been workin towards.
yes i know im a freaking slacker.
sorryyyyyyy then.
sorry for dashing ur o-so-high expectations of me. well did it hav ta b dat sky high in the first place.
n i wasnt plotting ta murder anyone.
i swear.
dun ya think as ya type ur blog. its like ure talkin ta urself.
n like thats it.
then i stop ta think 'hey thats fun'
and its like huh?!?!?!
n ppl start rolling their eyes n saying 'barriers.............'
perhaps so.
lit tmrw.
the subject i adored so much has turned into a lesson i dread every week.
sumone giv me sum motivation please.
a lifetime free strawberry coated with choc card would cheer me up ALOT.
n ya.
all my flowers died even before blooming.
bad omen.
u think i will die young.
blooming
bloomed
dead before ya know it.
petals fall.
n all ya left with is the stalk n green crumpled veggie like leaves.
but they were so darn beautiful before.
beauty doesnt last.
see i proved it.
beauty=flower
flower withers up shrivels into brown hard paperish THINGS.
dead.
wow.
mayb it propogates first.
sexual organ of a plant.
dun look down on it.
ppl in gilead would love it.
o but i din recieve any red flowers.
no handmaid resemblance.
isnt it so like a woman.
u r like so darn youthful n such a pretty thing.
n then u reproduce.
start ta shrivel up.
die.
n it like repeats over n over again.
then wad r guys.
bees?
but bees die after a single sting.
i think im talkin digressing randomising a bit too much.
HOHO.
though i o do dum of the most embarrassing things eva.
like shouting out 'chee-zec!' in class
o cuming out with weird phrases n repeating them over n over juz for the kick annoying the hell outta ppl ard me.
mameemoo
mameemoo
mameemoo
mameemoo
mameemoo
y cnat i juz b lovable.
charm i need charm.
mayb sum magic potion would do the trick.
thats it.
im calling my witch now.
eh-heh.
*chuckles
please dun spoil my day.
its irritating when my mp3 runs outta batt when im alone on the bus.
its irritating when i havta do make up pes.
its irritating when i feel effing left out.
n please i dun say f*** that much unless im seriously truely very-ly pissed off. so when i say it. u know im in a darn bad mood. well not now though. im juz sayin it coz i was pissed off den.
i wish i had this ultra powerful charm that makes everyone think im a delightful lil gal ta b with.
n sadly no i freaking dun.
grumbles.
sulks.
whines.
n sumtimes im this spoilt brat. wanting everyone ta b on my side. ta agree with everything i say. hate those i hate treasure me like sum great greek goddess.
ok forget the greek part. haz.
argh!
i know im a mean selfish irritating ass. sorry.
bear with me.
i swear i will b sweeter the next time ya see me.
*gleams widely.
please?
o no i sound desparate n pathetic now.
hai.
grumbles.
n now n then i fall into depression. coz sum irritating ass treaded REAL HARD on my toes. n it hurts more then i feel angry bout. rahness.
n then again i start ta think 'o man i sound like a certain small assed creature!'
n o wells it aint that bad after all. but no. i refuse ta be like the other one. no freaking way ok.
unless of course u think im the prettiest gal ard.
hahahahahahahahahahahahah.
its a joke. please.
cant i make a joke without u rolling ur eyes n thinking i judge ppl too cynically n that my sarcastic remarks are sum way ta injure sumone. no please its a joke. i swear.
ITS A JOKE.
need i say more.
dun judge me. >_________<
i hate it when u judge me.
advice n comments r welcomed.
juz dun look at me in dat way. u know. dat way.
coz u in ur heart judge too. *points finger accusingly in the intellectual way n says *horhor..........
unless u r a saint. dun eva look at me the way u do. i will... kick u? ok mayb bite u.
im juz venting my anger. n seriously i will b ok the next day. IM NOT THAT MEAN. i swear. *nods head profusely n points ta anyone i know n says *ya hor ya hor.
haz. im sorry for all the write n direct. oops. did i mention i din like that in sum post. oi u all b thankful i dun really do it in real life as i walk talk n blah OK. hee. n no i dun point so rudely as well. bahness.
wads this.
i dun reallY talk v well. no i mean type v well. wait i dun mean i cant type well. *stop rolling ur eyes to dat too ok. mayb im slow in typing with lotsa typos. thats not the point i mean, i juz cant say wad i wanna say v well. *change the say to type please. yea. its a matter of style n expression. wad i always get in my lit essays. how wonderful is dat. to me. VERY wonderful. so much that i feel like breaking down n crying. screaming madly as i run aroundin circles 'o god! im so freaking unique that i hav a style of writing UNIQUELY beryl'. aint it a bright cheery wonderful life. i think so. dun ya think so too. good for tanning ya know.
n this is beryl in her feel like being sarcastic but aint v witty day. HOHO. thank u.
i think they look good together.
so sweet.
*wide smile that trembles.
yay.
but yes. they look really good together.
:)
Im Only Sleeping
The Vines
When I wake up early in the morning,
Lift my head, I'm still yawning
When I'm in the middle of a dream
Stay in bed, float up stream
Please don't wake me, no
don't shake me
Leave me where I am
I'm only sleeping
Everybody seems to think I'm lazy
I don't mind, I think they're crazy
Running everywhere at such a speed
Till they find, there's no need
Please don't spoil my day
I'm miles away
And after all
I'm only sleeping
Keeping an eye on the world going by my window
Taking my time
Lying there and staring at the ceiling
Waiting for a sleepy feeling
Please don't spoil my day
I'm miles away
And after all
I'm only sleeping
Keeping an eye on the world going by my window
Taking my time
When I wake up early in the morning,
Lift my head, I'm still yawning
When I'm in the middle of a dream
Stay in bed, float up stream
Please don't wake me,
no don't shake me
Leave me where I am
I'm only sleeping
HAZ. reminds me how i slept 12 hours on monday. cna ya imagine going ta sleep at 6 in the evening n waking up at 6 in th morn the next day. great great sleeeeeeppp.
Everybody seems to think I'm lazy
I don't mind, I think they're crazy
funny. hahahahahahhaa.
Sing with me.
xiao xiao says i muz reply ta comments left on the blog.
okok.
i reply.
ta ser: lurbe lurbe lurbe! HOHO. sound slike burping sounds or sth. haz.
ta xiao xiao: u r mad. NANNY NANNY POO POO. n its a pun ok. n i dun assasinate u. i juz cover u with LOTSA KISSES N HUGS. haz. limited edition ones ok. only for miss tan xiao xiao. kiss kiss kiss.......... HOHO. n pls kisses dun kill for nuts. so i din kill u hor. :P
went for a mc today coz i woke up late for road run. then went ard looking for rach's god of small things book. great read i muz say. as usual i like stories bout lives. u know like biographies. i think im like weird. i hav this strange affection for books that contain stuff bout abuse. oppression of women. especially those stories bout women in middle eastern ctrys or africa. n wars. its juz so sadistic. im sorry but ya. i cant bring myself ta read sum light hearted book bout weird unreal stuff. okok. mayb when i needta destress or sth.
then went for souvenir hunting with rach. darn tiring ok. i was neva so glad ta see mrt seats in my life b4. n we found like lotsa stuff ta buy. but i ran outta money. sulks. theres this silk top its liek erm the wide kind black with flowers n it juz loked so vintage-gey retro. drools, n it 35 bucks pls. NO MOOLAH. sulks again. i am so gonna go bac n get it. n my nice bead red necklace. n headband. cum at think of it. the necklace matches the TOP i want. its not much of a shirt. its like this wide cape ya pull over. its kinda like this look i neva tried before. but heck im totally in love with it pls. n o yaya! i wanna get this wide hat frm roxy. heh heh. its so like BEACHY. wheeee. happiness. hopefully i get it before the tannin session with miss ser tan n miss xiao xiao. n so i can glam-ly wear it ta sentosa! yayness. i hate it when i hav to many wants n so darn lil money. n this is when i giv my puppy-eyed look n begs everyone ard me ta donate to da give-beh-a-happy-day-and-she-wont-b-violent-day-fund. *GLEAMS.
i love rock n roll.
BUT wait. i love hip hop n reggae too.
sappy songs r so sweet once in a while.
o wells.
Dream On
Aerosmith
Every time that I look in the mirror
all these lines on my face getting clearer
the past is gone
it went by like dusk to dawn
isn't that the way everybody's got their dues in life to pay
Yeah, I know nobody knows
where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
you got to lose to know how to win
Half my life's in books' written pages
live and learn from fools and from sages
you know it's true
all the things come back to you
Sing with me, sing for the years
sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
sing with me, if it's just for today
maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away
Dream on, dream on, dream on,
dream yourself a dream come true
dream on, dream on, dream on,
and dream until your dream comes true
dream on
came across this pic in my comp. n i havta say this. sum of my frens used ta think that he was me! haz. but im so darn happy bout it ok. coz i think he looks G-O-O-D. HE is like my all time eye-candy puhlease. i swear im gonna wear caps out more often. go se7en go se7en gogogo se7en! JUMPS ARD IN ECSTACY.
whee
i wish i had this o-so-exciting life. but erm no. i dun. anyways exciting is not an equivalent to complicated. and certainly not the kind of complicated lives in which sum ppl direct n act in themselves. HOHO. that sounded sour.
i like sour power. keeps me awake.
random.
shld i go cut my hair sohrt. itchy fingers. nono. not gonna cut my hair myself but ya. i cant possibly say itchy tots rite...
:P
crappy.
cute ass number 2 and his po ma-ness is making me irritated. wan say dun say wan say dun say.but still he does the quirkiest things eva tat r o-darn-amusing. and for dat he is partly forgiven. HOHO.
and did i mention i shld stop creating long connecting words of my own.
haz.
o wells. lotsa work. partly sian-ed.
and tan herng yuan gav me the scare of my life when he looked so darn grumpy coz i cldnt go return the tank with him. RAHNESS. n no it was not coz of me. I NOT SO IMPORTANT RITE.............................. coz he din understand the math lecture. haz. that weird poke.
anyways i still needta return him sum monay. guilt. guilt. guilt.
>_____<
hye sung!
watched the shinhwa 'angel' mv today.
cute ass i say. freaking cute ass.
go se7en go se7en. go go go se7en.
tralala.
Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me" |
A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking What turns you off: fighting and conflict Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love |
What Does Your Candy Heart Say?
WHINES.
tired...................
still got alot of work.........................
whines.........................................................
tj lessons are boring. i miss the gp lessons where we juz spoke our mind n blurt stuff out as n when e want to. makes the lesson so darn much livelier.
ding ah quan is freaking funny. haha. i din know guys knew so much gossip puh-lease. okok. mayb its juz me being oblivious ta stuff ard me. haz. dude thanks for all the SUSPENSE. wan say dun say wan say dun say. kick u ah.
twiddle dee twiddle dum.
:)
i need a good meal. a nice nice nice meal! tom yam soup my fellow tom-yam-soupers? haz
i cnat stand it when my teachers mix me up with evryone in the world n thus mark me as abscent coz they think im siewleelee or rachie. kill me please. like my face so pu tong sia.
* ------ cut along the dotted line. *
haz. funny shit.
wardobe revamp change change change. erm when i hav the monay. haz.
i wan a dragonboat paddle. been havin weird dreams about ppl ard me gettin dragonboat paddles n me gettin a dragonboat paddle. DREAMS. rahness. weird isnt it. weird i say. weird.
cant the hols juz cum like now. i so need a tanning session with mis ser tan n miss xiao xiao. xiao xiao is a pun. haha. small small n crazy crazy. HOHO. tralala.
i lurbe lurbe u u lurbe lurbe me. we lurbe lurbe evryone. haz. rite ser tan.................
jump jump ard. throw ur hands up n kiss the ground.
HEH HEH.
im so not in the mood for doing homework. but wait when was i eva like yay-lets-do-homework-ish.
i shld stop making long connected words of my own. shrinks my vocab.
cute ass number one n two stared at cute ass number 3 aka melty today. n we both din know we were staring till cute ass number 3 turned and saw us. and cute ass number 1 n 2 had no time ta turn away so we both pretended we were starin into space. which resulted in cute ass number 2 realisin cute ass number 1 was staring at the same person. n how we both look like cute dumb asses. haz. this is wad ya get when ya go home wth cute ass number 2.
oi ding ah quan happy rite. i say u cute ass leh.
n stop being so picky u ass.
i need sum starbucks.
rahness.
wait till i finish my work.
L.O.V.E
Ashlee Simpson
I'm talkin' 'bout love
All my girls stand up in a circle
and clap your hands this is for you
Ups and downs highs and lows
NO matter what you see me through
My boyfriend he don't answer on the telephone
I don't even know where the hell he goes
But all my girls we're in a circle
and nobody's gonna break through
L, O, L, O, L O LO V E
L, O, L, O L, O
L, O L, L O L, O L O V E
L, O L O L O
Did you hear me say
L, O, L, O L O L O V E
L, O, L O L, O
L, O L O L O L O V E
L, O L O L O L O
I'm talking about love,
say you'll be my girls for life
Girls for life
Oh hold off I need another one
I think you, you do too
Grab my bag, got my own money
Don't need a man in this room
My boyfriend he'll be calling me now anytime
I need all girls to keep him off my mind
So hold up we need another one
What we got is all good
L, O, L, O, L O LO V E
L, O, L, O L, O
L, O L, L O L, O L O V E
L, O L O L O
Did you hear me say
L, O, L, O L O L O V E
L, O, L O L, O
L, O L O L O L O V E
L, O L O L O L O
I'm talkin; 'bout love
I'm talkin' bout love
Love is an energy,
love is a mystery
Love is meant to be true
Love is a part of me
Love is the heart of me
Love is the best thing that we do
L, O, L, O, L O LO V E
L, O, L, O L, O
L, O L, L O L, O L O V E
L, O L O L O
Did you hear me say
L, O, L, O L O L O V E
L, O, L O L, O
L, O L O L O L O V E
L, O L O L O L O
vday.
long day that passed so quickly.
m i making sense?
nice yet not so nice. fun yet not so fun. haappy but not totally.
i hate being vvvv high. sth bad happens after dat. grumbles.
rahness.
im tired.
theres an econs test.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
mission mayb impossible 1: sunflower must bloom aka sunflower dies aonther day.
HOHO.
i miss chatting n being ard the ppl i love on vday.
thanks for the gifts.
hearts hearts hearts
im weird. not eating alot lately.
n then theres sudden hunger pangs.
weird. rahness.
hmwk hmwk n more hmwk.
i think everyone has a weird(kuku) point. and dats wad makesem unique. well if ur weird point is detestable then its a too bad for u case i guess.
theres a difference between insentivity n being direct. hahahahaha. i knwo val said dat to me like a dozen times.
anyways. o wells so i still hav a whole bunch of lit hmwk ta complete. n theres the triple lit lesson tmrw i always dread. grumbles.
cna u believe theres an econs test on wed. the day after vday. like howta study. vday would b like couple-go-out-mushy-ing day n singles-go-out either feeling pathetic day or good thing-we-r-single day. and juz in case u r wondering which one i am. a bit of both frm the im single point. haz. puh-lease im not like ppl who will juz grab back anyone so they hav a date ok. im worth much more. I HOPE. n if u r my fren u betta say so. if not i bite u. rahhhhh. which remidns me wad edwin(not my dearest edwinne, miao-ey dear, HOHOHOHOHO. ) the class intellectual said ta me 'xiao monster yi zhi'. CRACKS ME UP TA IMAGINE HE SAID IT. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. as i said he is the class intellectual. intellectuals arent suppsed ta say such stuff t class crazy slackers like me. haz.
i remember theres sumone who constantly tells me ta wait for the right one. who was it. miao? bing? vonny? erm mayb everyone else? haz. n theres the usual bunch who sticks up for me when i was down n out coz of the jerk. theamount of encouragement n advice they hadta say over n over again was truckloads full. thank u oky. :)
and i wil say wad i always say. i heart ppl who heart me. u lurbe me i lurbe me. u lurbe me lalalalala. u knw dat old cheenish song. haz. ni ai wo wo ai ni that one....
o yaya. i guess when ya in love u neglect lotsa things ard u. including ur frens. o wells. still try ta make up for it at least i guess. seriously. to those irritated by frens being head-over-heels in love not coz of jealousy. i guess. u juz havta IRRITATE EM BACK. oops dat was pretty evil. ya u can get backat em by irritating them in the playful way lo. irritating ppl is my niche. giv me a call n tell me whou wan irritate. i swear i only take a small fee. n pls dun go n irritate my frens. if u do i swear i will irritate u back. i din use too. but sumhow or another im startin ta becum quite defensive. so ya. dun get on their nerves or mine. dun try. im prone ta snapping bac nowadays. see how evil im becuming. grumbles. n i tot i cld cultivate inner beauty n charm. haz.
可惜不是你
梁静茹
这一刻突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据
差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见
可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见
可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
可惜不是你陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口
i like this song. wahahahahaha. so like sweet. tian mi mi ni xiao de tian mi mi... haz. think im going mad.
my day off from sch. yippee.
我们可不可以不勇敢
当伤太重心太酸无力承担
就算现在女人和流行使然
好像什么困境都知道该怎么办
我们可不以不勇敢
当爱太累梦太慢没有答案
难道不能坦白地放手哭喊
要从心里拿走一个人很痛
很难
din go to sch today. and gosh y hardy hav ta do sum research before writing the essay!!!! handmaid's tale is definitely nice but still theres TOO MUCH details here n there.... anyways. i hate missing out on things. im a jealous ass. rahhhhhhhhhhh. so proud fo myself for finishin my hong lou meng. HOho. I KNOW I HAV BEEN PROCASTINATING FOR TOO LONG. lata muz do my lit essay. i think im a dumbass who chooses ta take language language n lotsa languages. though i found thats really wad i love though. haz. i swear i will speak chinese proper.
o yaya. can do the leelee dunno wad 8 qualities u like in a guy blah here goes. haz.
1) PUH-lease......... i believe in the guy doing the jio-ing. sumhow i get the feeling that if the gal makes the first move she loses a great deal of her value. n if the guy doesnt like u enuff to make the first move. its juz not worth it. n the status of the relationship HAS TA B CONFIRMED. i hate da u-r-u-r-not feeling. rahness so it emnas the guy has ta b decisive.
2) Accepting. He muz love me for me. whether im having a bad hair day or pimple outbreak. haz. well its vice versa as well.... :)
3) The quite, quite only ok, egoistical dude whos actually a softie at heart. basically u gotta hav an attitude of ur own.
4) Steadfast. Always be there for me. ta hold my hand when im sad n ta be there ta share my joy. withstand my whines n grumbles n complains. thus he has ta b vvvv tolerant. haz.
5) Loyal. who will want a boyfren who flirts.
6) Sensitive. He understands me n i understand him. telepathy would b heavenly.
7) Big enuff for me ta cuddle. n preferably not too chao lao since my face is ya like u know.
8) Romantic but yet practical. romantic in a subtle, sweet way. lil surprises now n then would really melt me. haz. but still muz b practical enuff ta plan for the future.
*being mr tiffany n co wouldnt hurt. hahahahahahahahahah. jkjk. puh-lease do i look that materialistic to u... grins evily. HOHO.
but i guess the most important thing is. I MUZ LOVE HIM N HE MUZ LOVE ME TOO.
:)
lovely lovely poem
somewhere i have never travelled
by e.e.cummings
somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond
any experience, your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near
your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully, mysteriously) her first rose
or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;
nothing whihc we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing
(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands
*the poem is meant ta not hav capital letters besides the word 'Spring'
THIS POEM IS AWESOME. TOTALLY LOVE IT MORE THEN HARDY.
its the sorta poems which expresses deep deep love in such a subtle way. juz the freaking romantic imagery of the whole poem makes me melt....... n theres wad mrs lofthouse says of how u feel when u are in love... haz... u wanna protect the person... HOHO. its sorta the u gotta feel it urself love i guess.. gosh. haven been sleeping in lit.... poems like this keep me awake i tell u... haz.. n suddenly my passion for lit arises again... its takes so lil ta get me motivated n so lil ta make me lose all the pssion i hav for a subject.. juz like lep.. can u believe i passed my zhuo wen.. eva since i came ta tj las year my zhuo wen all fail one sia... n finally... i passed it with a mark thats hardly juz pass... im like astonished.. thank god it means theres sumone who can read MY chinese... :)
theres this book i borrowed thats darn nice... though erm ya it speaks pretty explicitly n frequently bout reproduction. 'reproduction' sounds so medical..... sci-cey... haz... o wells the storyline is fabulous.. but being the impatient reader im i juz go thru the book darn quickly ta get da gist of the story... o wells... gonna read it a second time ta appreciate the language. anyways... heres the storyline... and its pretty complictaed... i know. write it out in point form... i mean type out. haz.
and so the story goes....
~main character Deirdre's parenst die when she was young and she wenta live with her grandma who later gave her to a convent
~her parents had this mystical love story bout how her father hunted birds n her mother was always n i mean ALWAYS with her father
~so Deirdre grows up in the convent n falls in love with a fellow convent gal traning ta b a nun(Bairbre) *scandalous
~to be closer ta Bairbre she decides ta b a nun too
~however she is introduced to Manus, a guy whos Bairbre's brother and falls in love with him
~she marries Manus and is controlled by her tyrannical mother-in-law who controls almost every aspect of her n her husband's life
~she realises the truth behind Bairbre being a nun which is..................... they belong to a family where one family member from the family line has ta becum a member of the church... however the mother-in-law din wna her son ta b a preist n so sends Bairbre against her wishes ta b a nun... n Bairbre eva willingly ta please her mum agrees ta do so
~Bairbre gives birth to 2 girls who arent adored at all by her mother-in-law as she wants a grandosn ta b a preist in the future
~ anyways th mother-in-law is terribly unreasonable as she wants a grandson ta b a preist so as to atone for how she herself abandoned her sisterhood ta marry my father-in-law
~Bairbre is raped by her husband after her newborn son dies and thus refuses ta forgiv him
~seriously that guys a wimp listening ta his mum at every thing. but still he really is pathetic coz he doenst hav a fren, is really really lonely, wife doesnt forgive him n treats him like air, and has ta resort ta talkin ta ar so that he can impress the only fren he has who is definitly a bad influence(he drinking excessively n visting prostitues)
~Bairbre's daughters grow up each of a different character n r sent ta da convent depsite her objections
................ haven end...ITS JUZ TOO MUCH DETAILS IM SO SORRY. anyways the book is called 'The Marriage Bed' and i guess its a good read but gets preety boring coz... its juz so much of elaboration that drones on n on n on.. n so its the o-they-did-this-o-they-did-that kinda reading n movin on...
i love shows that depict real life n how ppl strive thru the problems they hav, makes me sob like mad, anyways im pretty cryable nowadays so dun get me started............. Family Law is GOOD. i love the show..... :)
frenships r weird. i think. sumtimes i feel its LIKE... if ya dun lose the person u neva know how they had been there... or rather u only cherish when ya lose... sumtimes it strikes me dat wad vonny said mayb rite.... if i giv in too much, i only get taken advantage of... but still wads a frenship if u dun giv ur all... but still i guess the affection one gives to another cna neva b measured equally... uh-huh! measure for measure... u neva know if the person u giv ur all to will giv their all bac ta u... WEIRD.
i think a mother's love for their child will always b the greatest. after all the pain they go thu ta deliver a child inot the world. they really are wonderful. :)
知足
五月天
怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能知道足够
如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有
当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛
那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞
当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛
如果你快乐再不是为我
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛
*I LOVE THIS SONG.
long long day
not really a fantastic day.
sulking bout it wont help. but i did for most of the day.
crying doesnt either. it only makes my paper wet.
n cum ta think of it. i shldnt b crying. everyone has their life. i guess mine is juz goin thru a rough patch.
was pretty glad dat i was goin ta plaza sing after sch n i prob cld get sum things off my mind.
n guess wad. i almost died in pain from a cramp. okok. i din like almost die. but still the pain was pretty excruciating ok. it was the cramp plus feeling like vomitting anytime. funny how i always get illnesses that resemble pregnancy. haz. n then the doc would ask the nurse ta giv me a pregnancy test without even askin if i eva had sex before. dun ya think tats weird.
its irritating how the older i get the easier i fall sick. i remember how i used ta b darn healthy las time in psch n sec sch. it was like i hadta fake sum illness juz ta skip sch like wad? three times a year? and then las year i was pretty much falling sick at the most unexpected times. i cld juz wake up in the morn n start ta vomit juz beside my bed when everything was ok the day before. n the cycle of my sickness seems pretty similar. cramp or headache. then cums da fever. then the giddiness. n then the vomitting.
o wells. i juz had so much tots juz now. but ya. i din write it down or anythin n its all gone.
i dread sch tomorrow.
okok. mayb its like wad san said. its juz a phase.
i hav a thick skull. haz
sumhow i felt so much betta during lep.
i dunno. study. thats all i guess.
i guess subconsciously i hav been waiting. but its pretty long now, redundant as well. very redundant. still letting go isnt as easy as juz sayin so. i guess. its juz time ta stop. at least i will try. sudden dawning upon me when i woke frm my sleep juz now.
我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你
im pretty much afraid of wad lies ahead. n i juz wanna get everything over n done with.
argh. im juz so cryable nowadays. makes me feel like im tunin into a gu niang. irritating.
Someday
Nickelback
How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late
Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
someday we'll know
o wells. pretty ok day.
shopping with ah cho wasnt fruitful! grumbles. i din buy anything. i think im going bac ta get a shirt that caught my eye though. HEHHEH.
then the strawberries dipped with choc looked positively horrible, n so i din get em though i wanted so much ta eat sum GOOD strawberries with choc. grumbles again.
then we wenta enghar's house for sum steamboat dinna thing. whihc kinda shocked me coz there were quite a few ppl there already. ppl i dunno.
theres sth wrong with me.
im turnin into an insociable freak.
n so i left early.
i think im weird.
but if ya think u r weird doesnt it make u normal coz u realise u r weird?
ok. thats weird.
mayb i juz like the word 'weird' since i dun hav this extensive range of vocab in my brain.
i wish life was all about having tons of fun. no responsibility. job. work. wadsoeva.
ok. thats like totally impossible.
... u may say im a dreamer but im not the only one...
HOHO. i like that song. gleams.
i hav hmwk ta do. dun feel like doing. but still. i guess i hav to.
im so dreading the triple lit period.
sumhow or other all my passion for languages hav died eva since i came ta tj. n the teachers make me seem i hav absoulutely no gift or anything in doing wad i used ta love to do. grumbles number 3.
o wells. thats life i guess.
hope its a betta day tomorrow n im not all sulky. haz. i hope. lit will kill me i guess. :P
Someday We'll Know
Mandy Moore n Johnathan Foreman
[Mandy] Ninety miles outside Chicago
Cant stop driving I dont know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later your still on my mind
[Jonathan] Whatever happened to Amelia Airheart?
Who hold the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
[Both] Did the captain of the Titanic cry?
Oh, Someday we'll know
[Mandy] If love can move a mountain
[Both] Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] Why the sky is blue
[Both] Someday we'll know
Why I wasnt meant for you...
[Mandy] Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
[Jonathan] What the wind says when she cries?
[Mandy] Im speeding by the place that I met you
[Both] For the ninety-seventh time...Tonight
Someday we'll know
[Mandy] If love can move a mountain
[Both] Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] Why the sky is blue
[Both] Someday we'll know
Why I wasnt meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] Why Samson loved Dalilah?
[Both] One day I'll go
[Mandy] Dancing on the moon
[Both] Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you....
[Both] Open up the world
[Mandy] I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
[Jonathan] Watched the stars crash in the sea
[Mandy] If I can ask God just one question
[Both] Why arent you here with me tonight?
Oh, Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] If love can move a mountain
[Both] Someday we'll know
[Mandy] Why the sky is blue
[Both] Someday we'll know
Why I wasnt meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Someday we'll know
[Jonathan] Why Samson loved Dalilah
[Both] One day I'll go
[Mandy] Dancing on the moon
[Both] Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you....
i love the lines 'bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow.... watch the stars crash in the sea...' aint it seem o-so-wonderful n magical n blah. gleams..............
fgdh
addicted ta nickelback.
Far Away
Nickelback
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away (So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away (So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
lala
today was betta i guess. recovering from my depression.
wondering if i shld go for the rock concert or for vonny's bday party.
One Day I'll Fly Away
Nicole Kidman
One Day I'll Fly away I follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin
To live again?
One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
What more could
Your love do for me?
When will love be
Through with me?
Why live life from
Dream to dream
And dread the day
When dreaming ends?
One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from
Dream to dream
And dread the day
When dreaming ends?
One day I'll fly awayFly, fly away
i love ppl who love me. u know u lurbe lurbe me i lurbe lurbe u..... hahahaha....
thanks ah cho for the hello kitty hang above the wall so cute thing. haz. erm but my dorrs are french doors. not the rectangle kind. but still its cutseyy.... heh heh...
i love crystal jade pei dan zhou.
grey contact lenses or hazel ones? or erm blue? haz.
n my tanned skin is givin me rosy cheeks. a bit too rosy though. actually it isnt that rosy. juz dat when i talk more or get excited or juz get hyperactive, my cheeks get fushed. n with the tan. it gets darn red. free blusher. haz.
irritating.
argh! not exactly a very good day. gettin grumpier n more easily irritable. muz b the vday cumin syndrome. rahness. okok. myab im juz pms-ing. sumtimes i juz feel insignificant in the world. and yet as insignificant as i am, im still bogged down by tests homework blah. tryin ta struggle with my studies. n its like. i might be the only one left in lit now. wow. so now im more then eva segregated frm the class. how wonderful. i dunno. y m in tj. wtf m i doing here. ruinin my own life. sumtimes i juz feel so dman 'out'. n eff it. it isnt such a great feeling. n no im not goin ta start blamin anyone for ruining my life if u get wad i mean. yes im a mean ass. it isnt helpin dat i dun hav much of a life in tj. so im a grumpy boring mean ass.
move bitch get outta way get outta way bitch get outta way.
reminds me so much of art days. haz. but its so my song now since i hav like pent up anger in me. for god knows why reasons. n the above line was not directed at anyone. juz a song dat seems so nice ta yell with, in my current stae of part depression part angsty part isolated mood. in case ppl think im tryin ta badmouth anyone. no ok. no. dun hallucinate. thank u.
Rainy Days
Mary J Blige n Ja Rule
It's just those rainy days
Spend a lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun come out and shines again
Smile for me, smile for me
[Ja Rule]
Yea baby
Sometimes the Rule don't mind the rain
It kinda feels like I'm drownin in the Lords pain
Until the sun comes out and shines again
Smile, and give me reason to keep believin
That everything ain't misleadin
And I, kiss the clouds on them rainy days
And, smile for you when ya skys are gray
Babe, cuz I'm a tear drop away from cryin
And a few shots away from dyin
Dear Lord, would you shower my pain
Let it rain, let it rain on me
While I cherish the air I breathe
I'm an angel, that can't soar, can't fly
And I, mastered it Lord knows why
[Mary]
It's just those rainy days
Spend a lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun come out and shines again
Smile for me, smile for me
[Mary]
I feel like an angel
With my broken wings
So I can soar again
Lord let me in
Baby through all the passion the pain and the hurt
I feel like I'm fallin, yeah
Makin clothes for all of those that
Spread love
And for those who can't take it
Stand up
Baby, we gonna make it
In the words of Marvin Gaye
War is not the answer
Cuz nobody loves the rain
[Ja Rule] Can't stand it
We know we've seen it before
[Mary] Baby, handle it
Baby, what did we tell ya before
About chasin those waterfalls
[Both] Yeah...
[Mary] Nobody loves the rain
[Ja Rule] Can't stand it
We know we've seen it before
[Mary] Baby, handle itBaby, what did we tell ya before
About chasin those waterfalls
[Both] Yeah...
[Mary]It's just those rainy days
Spend a lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun come out and shines again
Smile for me, smile for me
[Ja Rule]All of those rainy days
Spend ya lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun shines and I see your face
Smile at me, smile at me
jzebel
beh
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grumbles
whines
sulks
______
my baby =)